I know I shouldn’t be but I’m jealous of my friends’ weight loss.

I’m a 19(f) and I’m pretty self-conscious about my weight. It’s not a big deal by any means but I can tell that I’m still putting on weight. I’m only 5’2 and I’m 120 pounds now so it was pretty obvious.<br><br>I have friends who also were making an effort to lose weight and I recently found out that the both lost their weight successfully.<br><br>Friend A (let’s call her Nicole) was 130 pounds and I recently found out that she’s now 105 pounds. I’m kinda hurt to be honest because she was supposed to be my biggest supporter yet she didn’t help me lose weight when she knew I was trying to. She even stopped inviting me out to go on runs or exercise together once she got serious about losing weight. I kind of feel betrayed because of that but I don’t know if I should feel this way because losing weight is hard for her and she needed to be strict—I know.<br><br>Friend B (let’s call her Kate) is a different story. She was always more petite than Nicole and was only 110 pounds so she was just trying to lose a few pounds while still maintain her 5’5 height. But then she started exercising more to get her ideal weight and I recently found out that she’s now 95 pounds. She was also my closest friend and I trusted her with my insecurities about my weight but she never really helped me. She even stopped going to the gym with me when she got serious about losing weight too and I don’t know if that’s just me being overly sensitive but it kind of hurts.<br><br>Both of them are now skinnier than me and I know I shouldn’t be feeling this way because they deserved to lose weight and I didn’t put in as much effort as they did but I’m still jealous. Maybe it’s because I felt like they both used me for motivation and I don’t know what to make of it.<br><br>Nicole was my friend for a longer period of time than Kate was (Kate and I have been friends for 7 years while Nicole and I have been friends for 10 years) so I was torn between how to handle the situation. I felt like I was just being petty and I didn’t want to take away from their accomplishments but I also didn’t want to let it go because it was hurtful.<br><br>I know I’m not overweight and that I’m in a healthy weight for my height but I’ve always been insecure about my body and my weight ever since I was a kid.<br><br>I tried talking to my boyfriend about it and he said that I’m being irrational and petty. I tried talking to Nicole about it and she said that I’m being petty too and that I’m acting like a child. Kate kind of understood me but she said that I should grow up and be happy for her and Nicole. They all basically told me that I should just be happy for them and move on.<br><br>I just wish I was good enough honestly.<br><br>Edit: I will not be reading any comments now as I need to focus on my mental health and I need to move on from this situation. Thank you for your advice. I really appreciate it.