I just turned 21, so I joined the X app to see if anyone has posted any nudes of me. I should have never done it.

There were many pictures posted of me, and I could tell they were from when I was a kid. Dozens. Something about being a "proud lil' fella".<br><br>I did not recognize the person from the post, but he was a man in his 30's with millions and millions of followers. I googled him, and it turns out he has been all over the news recently. I don't think I should have a job, or a family, or anything. I should be locked up.<br><br>One of the comments said "you're the one who called him daddy. It's fine". I have no recollection of what happened. I don't know who this person is, or if I've even ever spoken to him. I don't know why I'm so physically ill until I see him in my dream after dream after dream.<br><br>I'm not sure what I should do, but I know I'm just going to go crazy. I know that's what's happening. As part of me wants to go to the police and beg them to lock me up, another part is horrified that anyone would accuse me of being sick just because of what one person posted on the internet. But I think about it every day. I think about when I was a kid and what I used to fantasize about. As a teenager. I am so horrified, but I don't know if they're just fantasies. The man in black with a red snake embroidered on his shirt tells me there is a difference between having thoughts and acting on them. I don't know what he is, but he claims to have more free will than I do, and that he is only showing me the truth.<br><br>I know what I need to do. I need to go to the police and ask them to lock me up until I am out of danger. Until I am safe. Something in me thinks I am a danger. A danger to myself and others. I don't feel as though I have a choice, but I just wanted to warn you... you see, I've always been the type that enjoyed any kind of pain, and I've never been scared of anything. Then, I found something in my basement. I don't know what it is, but you will be able to picture it in your head once you read this.<br><br>I should have never done it.