I haven't showered in over a year

I'm a 24 year old girl and I have depression. I've never had a problem showering regularly before but over the past year I noticed myself just not wanting to any more, whilst at the same time I don't like the idea of not showering. I shower with soap and water, not body wash. For the past year I've been doing as basically little as I can to look after myself and I feel so ashamed when I look in the mirror at my dirty self, and then I just end up crying and making myself believe that I am worthless, whilst also believing that I did this to myself. I have no motivation to shower and I'm too embarrassed to tell my family and friends that I haven't showered in over a year. I see no point in getting clean and I'm starting to fear that I will never be clean again.<br><br>I feel disgusting.<br><br>&#x200B;<br><br>Edit: There is no point responding to this post, all the comments have been read and I'm in the process of showering. Thank you for being so sweet and nice to me.