I WATCHED MY SON TAKE A crt and throw it in the dumpster. I was in so much pain I had to go cry in the parking lot.

I did it. I finally let go of the past. I tell myself it does not matter what made the video. What is important is that it is good. I tell myself things are better this way. I tell myself it’s for the best. I tell myself to let go gracefully but it hurts. It hurts more than I ever thought it could. It hurts more than anything in my life has ever hurt. I was strong though. I knew I must be strong and let this moment be the end of it. It is over. I must let it rest in peace.