I accidentally Copy and Paste a very horrible sentence.

Before I start I want to say: I am An Arab, An Egyptian, I may have some English mistakes.<br><br>and this is the story:<br><br>I found a girl from Russia on Facebook, she was very beautiful, And I am interested with her, So I start to talk with her, We were both 16 years old, and she was very nice, after a week I proposed her and she also asked me to be her boyfriend, so we become in a relationship, even though we were from different countries and never saw each other, but we were happy in our virtual relationship, she was very nice and I loved her very much, and I think she also loved me very much.<br><br>One day, She was sad, because her friend died, and I saw her in a very bad situation, So I try to cheer her up, I wanted to say "Hope you feel better", But I never know what is the meaning of "hope" word in English, But I saw a sentence from a movie like: "Hope you die", So I thought the word Hope means "Love" or something like that, (Because I was 16 years old who watches very many movies), So I thought I am saying to her "you are lovely", but I said something very horrible, I was young, so I didn't know that it is very horrible, I wrote the sentence "Hope you die", and she said "what?", She was shocked, I was also shocked, because I knew that I said something very horrible, but it was too late, so I copy and paste the sentence again, I was very stupid and young, Copy and paste a horrible sentence like that, I was just 16 years old, so I don't know what I am saying, so I copy and paste the sentence again "Hope you die", and she said "I lost my boyfriend 3 years ago, I lost many people whom I loved, I lost my friend 3 months ago too, and now you are saying this to me you bastard, go to hell", I also shocked, and I said "what did I say to her", I said "hope", doesn't it mean like love, or good things, so I said what is the meaning of hope, She was very angry, so she blocked me, and I thought what did I write, so I searched for the word "hope" and I found that it means: to wish for something to happen, or something similar to that, so I feel like I am a dog, Because I need to lose everything whom I love, and everything that make me happy, so I can know that Hope word mean "to wish for something to happen", I was very stupid, I was very young, and I am also very young, So I may make mistakes, and I want to tell her that, But she blocked me, I also feel like I am stupid, Because I was too stupid, I tried for 8 months to contact her, I give up, So I also block her, I never talk to her again, I love her very much, and she was very lovely, and very nice to me, But I was very stupid, I also feel very sad, Because I want her to forgive me, but she blocked me forever, I was too stupid, I was too young.<br><br>Edit: The relationship was until early 2012.<br><br>Edit: I tried to forget this girl and move on, But I never forget her, I always thinking of her, I don't know why, But I think that she is very nice and very amazing to me.<br><br>Update: Well, I tried to contact her, and I tried to prove that I am not a bad person, and I tried to prove that I love her, and I tried many things, that I can't tell you, because it is a very long story, But it's okay, because I knew that she also loved me, and she was very nice to me, and I knew that I must be good to her, So I wanted to meet her, But I can't, Because I don't have money to buy a ticket to go to Russia.