I reported my mom to child protective services because she made me say the n word at gunpoint

I am a white woman and when I was 14 my mom made me say the n word repeatedly while she held a gun to my head. She recorded me and posted it online. She took the video down years ago but 2 years ago it got posted again and my family members saw it. I was humiliated. I asked her to take it down and she said she doesn’t know who posted it on Reddit. But then I saw her comment under the post, ‘This is my daughter’ so she was lying. I was so angry I reported her to child protective services. I’m 24 now and she did lose her other children, which I was happy about. I don’t know if they will give her kids back, I hope not. But I am starting to regret it now, I feel so guilty. She’s a terrible person and I don’t feel the least bit bad that I got her kids taken away but I keep thinking about how bad it is to use cps over something so vindictive. I don’t think I will admit to it to anyone, and she will always think the video was what ruined her life, which she deserves, but it doesn’t feel right.<br><br>Edit because some people are confused, I asked her to please take the video down and she said she didn’t know who posted it on a different platform, I already knew it was her video so I was already pissed off and insulting her. I didn’t just report her because she wouldn’t take the video down. I am also only vengeful about this and nothing else. There are a lot of things she could do to hurt me and she does not do those things, but she could have easily gotten rid of that and refused to and so I’m fucked now. If you aren’t seeing the whole picture of this then I can’t help you. I don’t agree that this is the right thing to do, I did it anyway. I don’t feel good about it now but I still think that she should have her kids taken away, I’m just embarrassed and I hate her so much and I regret it because I hate to be the bad guy and I know it wasn’t a good thing to do but I don’t feel bad that she got her kids taken away and I know I’m the reason it happened. So my moral compass is fucked up. I’m not trying to hurt her other kids, I’m just happy that they’re safer with foster families than they are with her. Alright, hopefully that clears everything up.