I have a mental disorder and I am dying to have my daughter.

I don't knw how to feel I'm all in my mind. I am 28yo and went on my honeymoon. I had sex with my bf many times each day for many days and when I got home I was really sad. I have a mental disorder, the mind goes in many ways. I told my husband I was pregnant and had to keep the baby. He didn't want it and was very sad, but I started to create a storyline and told him I had a doctor saying I was 3 months pregnant. By the time my husband saw the truth and he was very sad and disappointed. I kept calling myself pregnant and knowing that I wasn't, I felt it a lot. I think I wanna have a child, but my husband doesn't. I'm in therapy and I feel like he's dying to be a dad. I'm all in my mind but I don't know what to do. I'm all to myself and I don't know anyone to talk to. I went to my boss and he told me I was acting strangely and told me to go home, but I said I wasn't pregnant and I didn't understand how to act. I also asked to go home because of my mental health. My therapist asked me to go home... I'm all I can see and don't know how to control my mind. I'm all I can feel and I don't know how to stop it.