I was the girl that everyone wanted to date in high school, and I gave everyone the wrong idea.

I was a slender, tall, blonde (natural) girl with very long hair and green eyes. I was also very loud and a bit quirky. I found it incredibly easy to make friends with the guys at my school, and I very quickly became one of the guys. I spent most of lunch with the guys table, and we’d sit together at sporting events, school plays, and other school activities. <br><br>I was asked out by multiple guys, but I think I went on like… two dates? And I never dated anyone from my school. I also got asked to prom, and I never went. <br><br>I never told anyone, but I was sure that I was gay. I had a huge crush on one of my friends, and we fooled around a little bit. But I was too afraid to say anything because of the time period (I’m 27 now and this was 2010-2013).<br><br>I know everyone thought there was something wrong with me because I never dated anyone, and I was never able to tell them, because I didn’t want to be bullied. I’m finally able to admit that I’m a lesbian, and I’m engaged to an amazing woman. But I think about how I hid for so long, and I’m sad that I didn’t get to enjoy dating guys I liked because I was too afraid.