I conspired with my then-boyfriend to get my roommate pregnant

Throwaway because my real account is associated with my work. I'm fairly embarrassed about myself, too, but I'm writing this here because I need to vent. <br><br>I was in my early twenties, my roommate was fourteen. Both of my parents were working abroad and only came back to visit every three months. My cousin was supposed to be my guardian, but she never checked up on me either. So I was on my own most of the time. <br><br>I threw parties to get money, and I had a boyfriend from a wealthier family. To keep it short, he had the idea that it would be "fun" to get my roommate pregnant by using my drunk roommate in a threesome with him. I don't know what possessed me. I agreed. He came in her but we didn't use a condom. <br><br>A few weeks later, she told me she was pregnant. She was very scared because she hadn't had a boyfriend and was a virgin. I confessed to her immediately and told her it was my boyfriend's baby. She was so upset that she ran away from home. I didn't see her for months. <br><br>The police eventually caught up with her at a mall, and she was taken back home. Her parents were mad at me, but they didn't press charges. They thought their daughter was lying because she accused me of conspiring with my boyfriend. I didn't see her for months. <br><br>In December, my parents came back from abroad and took me out to dinner. They said they were going to give my roommate money for college because they were very disappointed in how I treated her. I was confused, and they showed me a text from my roommate's father. Basically, my cousin had gone through my phone and discovered all of my text conversations with my ex-boyfriend. My cousin gave the texts to my roommate's father, who blackmailed my parents into sending their daughter money every month. <br><br>My parents disowned me, and my cousin wouldn't take me in either. My roommate's parents kicked me out, and I couldn't stay with my ex because his parents hated me. He also dumped me for a girl from a wealthier family. <br><br>I was very lucky to find a job as a salesgirl and eventually moved to a different city. I've blocked all my old friends and acquaintances on social media. I do regret hurting my roommate, and I do feel so ashamed of myself.