I’ve been stealing for nine years

I’ve been stealing for 9 years, I steals make up almost everyday. I’m currently on antidepressants, sertraline, also sold as Lustral and other brands. I’ve been on it for 3 almost 4 years. And I stopped 3 weeks ago and less than 2 weeks ago I stole again. I’m not going to go into too much detail, I’m afraid of being caught very easily, that’s why I’m writing this on a burner account. But I’ve stolen products in the thousands, that’s all I’m willing to admit. I’ve also stolen at least 4 different sertraline prescriptions. I’m aware that I’m wrong and I’ve tried to stop, but it’s a compulsion. I’m currently sertraline free, or at least I was when I last took one 3 weeks ago, so it made stealing again more difficult in a way because I’m not on antidepressants, that usually makes it a lot more bearable. The only reason I stole again was because I’ve been stealing for so long, I didn’t know how to stop, and I got very depressed. I’ve been struggling with depression since I was 13, I was 6 years old when I started stealing. I’m 15 now. I’ve stolen cards and spent spent like 10k on them before, that’s the highest amount I’ve ever spent. I’ve stolen products and stolen prescriptions, I’ve stole money, I’ve done so much stealing at this point. I’ve tried so hard to stop, but I got very depressed at the end of last year and I got very depressed this year. I felt like I couldn’t stop because my life was so difficult and miserable that I couldn’t help myself. I felt like I’ve been punished for stealing every time I’ve stopped. I’ve been punished for it, but I’ve never been punished for it I guess. I got very depressed after my mother died. She died when I was 11, I was 6 when I started stealing. I felt at the time like it was a way to cope. I didn’t really steal very much at first. I only stole things that I didn’t have, makeup and hair stuff. But I’ve gotten really good at it. I was 7 when I started stealing money, that was a lot less risky at the time but it was also a lot more noticeable, I was only 6 when I started stealing makeup. I felt very justified after my mother died, my father sent me to live with a family that were friends with my parents at the time. They were very bad people, they made me feel like nothing, at the time I was stealing from them almost everyday. I stole my sertraline prescription from my father, and I stole my second sertraline prescription from my mother. I stole my third and fourth sertraline prescription from the people I was living with. I stole dozens of sertraline prescriptions that they had from their daughter, and I stole dozens more sertraline prescriptions from my best friend. They didn’t need it, they don’t need it. I spent hundreds of dollars on it as well, my life was so difficult and I was so miserable that I couldn’t imagine myself in a situation where I couldn’t take them. But I got very depressed, and I was already depressed, but I got very very depressed. I couldn’t imagine that I’d ever be able to stop, I was too depressed. I’ve tried to stop so many times, but I’m so used to it. I don’t know how to live without it. I almost don’t want to. Which is very bad. It makes me, let’s call it anxious, when I imagine myself in a situation where I’m not taking it. But I haven’t taken any sertraline for 3 weeks, and I stole again less than 2 weeks ago. I smoked sertraline a few days ago, I smoked it because I wanted to go back on it. I didn’t know how to live without it, I got very depressed because I stopped taking it and I didn’t know how to stop being depressed. That’s an excuse, I know that. I’m very sorry for my actions, and I feel very justified for them. I’m currently living in trouble at the moment, I was living with my father when he died and now I’m living with another family. I started stealing from my friend at the end of last year, and I stole a bunch more sertraline prescriptions from them at the beginning of this year. I’m aware that I’m wrong, but I could never tell the truth about it. I almost don’t want to, and I don’t know what my future is like if I do. I don’t know if anyone really wants to hear this, but I felt like I had to say it sometime, somewhere. Sorry for my English. I’m not a native speaker.<br><br>Edit: I’m definitely going back on sertraline<br><br>Edit 2: I don’t know if I want to stop smoking it sertraline