I got my friend a job and now she has to pay me back.

I am in my mid 30’s, I used to look for jobs a lot and have an incredible talent for creating resumes, cover letters, finding jobs, and doing interview prep. I got a job almost every time I applied for a single job posting. I took one of my friends under my wing and got her a job with me at my workplace. I took her out to dinner, bought her an outfit for her first day, and helped her with everything.<br><br>She repaid me for every single thing except for $25 and didn’t bother to ask me if she could pay me back with something else, she just told me that she didn’t owe me anymore and she had paid me back for every single thing that she had asked me for help with. I told her that she hadn’t paid me back for the dinner I took her out to and she told me that she had paid me back for everything so I didn’t owe her anything. <br><br>I told her that she didn’t owe me a single thing, I did it because I was a good friend but I did everything that I did because I loved her and appreciated her as a friend. I told her that I was hurt that she would treat me that way and that I didn’t want to be friends anymore. She tried to win me back with a $25 gift card to the restaurant, but that was it. I decided to block her and completely cut her out of my life. I was honestly very heartbroken because she has been my friend for over a decade.<br><br>Over time she has tried to contact me multiple times and even had her boyfriend and his mother message me to let me know that they wanted me to be friends with her again but I just completely ignored them.<br><br>I have been really happy about cutting her out of my life, I take the train and bus to get to work and I had to avoid her because she came in the same bus stop that I do and I would look over my shoulder every time to make sure it wasn’t her waiting. It’s been very exhausting but I have felt really happy and confident without her in my life.<br><br>In talking about her, I am honestly just sad that I don’t know how to treat people better. I treat everyone with love and care because I have been hurt so many times by not realizing that people are bad until it was too late. I just don’t know how to let people into my life anymore.<br><br>One of my friends told me that when you love people you have to give them space to hurt you. My mother told me that it’s okay if I get hurt but I think I am just going to learn how to love people in a different way so that I can appreciate people and help them without having them hurt me.