​ I gave a kid a blowjob in a public restroom.

&#x200B;<br><br>&#x200B;<br><br>This was literally over 15 years ago when I was still in my teens. I can’t explain why I did this and I don’t think it’s something that I would do again, but I’m REALLY hoping that it was his first time so I wasn’t taking advantage of a younger kid. I don’t even remember his name, but I do remember his face even though it’s not etched in my memory. <br><br>&#x200B;<br><br>It was at REALLY bad time in my life. My parents had just died and my brother and I had to REALLY grow up quickly. I’m not sure why this made me go out and start sleeping around, but maybe it was just to distract myself from the pain. My brother is younger than me so I just had to suck it up and be strong for him while dealing with my own shit. I remember that it was also my birthday and my friends had gotten me a card that said “Happy birthday. Go out and get laid.” <br><br>&#x200B;<br><br>So here I am at a bowling alley and a kid gave me a piece of paper with his phone number. I thought he was cute and I decided to meet up with him. We went to the parking lot and we were making out in his car. He wanted more than a kiss and I didn’t want to have my first time in a car. I told him that we could go to a gas station and I’d give him a blowjob. <br><br>&#x200B;<br><br>I was really nervous on the drive over since I was not only scared, I was also really giddy about the whole thing. I felt like such a bad kid doing something so bad, but at the same time, I was excited by the danger of possibly being caught. I think the excitement was part of the rush… I just felt like I was being a bad ass and I had not power. <br><br>&#x200B;<br><br>We got to the gas station and I told him to pick a stall. He told me that he wanted to watch himself get a blowjob and I was more than happy to do it his way. I think that I was more excited to see a dick in person than I was to actually do the act. I started by playing with his balls and then took his dick into my mouth. I remember looking up at him and seeing the expression on his face. It was so hot and it just made me more excited that I had caused that look on his face. <br><br>&#x200B;<br><br>Anyway, eventually he told me that he was about to cum. I had no clue what to do since I had never actually sucked a man off before, but I was determined to finish it. I took it all in my mouth and just swallowed. It wasn’t gross to me, but it wasn’t anything to write home about either. I was expecting it to taste bad, but it just tasted like salty water. Meh… <br><br>&#x200B;<br><br>I can’t believe that I actually did this in a public restroom. It REALLY turned me on at the time, but now that I have kids, I don’t think I could ever do something like that again. Yeah, my kids are grown now, but I still just can’t do something like that. I don’t know if it’s because I just grew out of that kind of thing, or if I just don’t want to be “that mom.”