I’m not excited about my pregnancy

I found out I’m pregnant yesterday and I haven’t told anyone but my husband. I’m not showing yet and my appointment is in a few weeks, but I’m not excited. I feel so bad. I’m so grateful that it was a healthy pregnancy. I don’t know if it’s the way my pregnancy journey started, but I feel like I don’t really have the same excitement and joy as I did with my first. I feel guilty and bad. Even my first, I had a hard time with so many issues so I feel so grateful it went well. But this pregnancy was different. I don’t even know, nothing has really happened yet, I feel like I should enjoy it more. I also worry I’ll feel like this when the baby is here because I didn’t have the same excitement as my first. I feel like I should be a little bit more excited. I also worry I’ll feel like this all the way until after I have the baby. Even my first, I didn’t feel that way, I was super excited through the whole journey. I feel like I’ve been really emotional lately.