Im a nurse and secretly cry in the bathroom after coding a patient.

I do my best to save everyone. I love my patients. I try to make them feel better. When I lose one, it hurts. I go to the bathroom and cry.<br><br>Edit: I feel so touched by all the support and love here. I feel honored by medical professionals who reached out and shared their own stories. It’s ok to feel things. Healthcare is truly a team effort and I’m grateful for so many of you. Thank you for reading and sharing your own stories with me. It means a lot. And to all the medical professionals out there, you’re doing better than you think you are. Keep going. <br><br>Edit number 2: I’ve gotten a few comments asking me to expand on the “coding a patient part”. I feel I should clarify I’m a psychiatric nurse and my coding was related to an ECT treatment. If you have any questions about this, feel free to ask. I’m happy to provide more information. Thank you again to all the wonderful people who have reached out. <br><br>Edit number 3: I’m saddened by anyone who has lost someone to suicide. I’m sorry if my words were poorly chosen and for anyone who had to relive a nightmare. That was not my intention.