I don't tell people that my son was stillborn.

I tell people that I adopted my son. I don't tell people that my son was stillborn. I tell people that I adopted my son because I don't want to hear them say "it was for the best". I don't want to hear that. I want to hear how sorry they are, I want to hear that they wish things could have been different for me and my family. Saying "it was for the best" makes me feel like I should be better off without him, like I should forget about him and move on. I don't want to move on from him, I want to move forward with him. He was my son, he was a part of our family and he is very missed. I tell people that I adopted my son because it gives them the reaction I want. I do it because I can't tell people how it really made me feel. I do it because I have to pretend like everything is okay. I do it because it makes me feel like I've honored him. I tell people that I adopted my son because I have to, and I hate it.