Childfree by choice, but now pregnant.

Throwaway account because my other account is linked to my real name.<br><br>Backstory:<br>My husband (m41) and I (f40) have been married for almost 2 years this May. We both had children in previous marriages, but we both lost them, mine to suicide, and his to a very rare congenital disorder. When we met, the childfree chamber became a huge source of comfort for me because there were people who understood. I loved being able to be open here about my choice to not have more children. We both love our children who are no longer here, and I can not imagine ever replacing them with new, biological kids. I have two adult children from my previous marriage, but unfortunately their father and I do not have a good relationship, and they are not involved in my life.<br><br>So, we made the decision to not have more children. Happy to wait out my remaining fertile years with my husband, step-daughters, and my cats. <br><br>Yesterday, I got a very shocking phone call from my doctor. After a trip to urgent care for vertigo, they did a pregnancy test which was positive, and then a dating ultrasound which was positive for a healthy 8 week pregnancy. I am beyond shocked. I am so confused, and still a bit in a daze, and unfortunately, not in a good headspace. <br><br>We are both stunned, and my husband told me his biggest fear is that I will resent the baby because I did not want to be a mom again. I don't think I am at that point yet. I think we are going to go to therapy together to work on it. <br><br>Where do I go from here? I have sought support from a few friends, and my mom and mother in law are thrilled, but that's it. I am so confused, and at such a loss for what to do here.<br><br>TL;DR: Pregnant against will, and not sure where to go from here.#####EDIT:<br>Wow, y'all are amazing. I am reading through the comments, and thank you so much for your kindness. It's very nice to feel supported. I am going to therapy next week, and my husband is going as well, together and separately. I am taking my time to process, but the support here has helped me to feel a little more positive, and not so alone. Thank you so much!<br>Also, I am not in danger of hurting the baby, physically, but I am having a hard time mentally. That's why therapy, and I am also making an appointment with my psychiatrist to adjust my medication. I promise that.