I allegedly ruined Thanksgiving by being myself

My mom died a year ago. I was very close to her and it’s been a tough road for me. My dad and my brother and sister in laws have been trying to get me to go out and be social again. I just don’t like it. I don’t like people. I’m introverted and can be difficult to get to know - which makes it hard to date. I went to Thanksgiving at my dad’s house because I was expected to and not going would have been a huge fight. I also brought my dog because it was a 4 hour drive and I didn’t want to leave her home alone that long. <br><br>I walked in and my brother and his wife and her family were already there. I said hi and I could tell I immediately irritated them all. They all stopped talking and just stared at me as if I was supposed to entertain them or something. I went to get my dog set up and when I came back, they were all talking again. I heard a lot of snickering and laughter and I’m sure they were talking about me. They always make fun of the way I talk, which is allegedly too fast. I can’t really control it that much. I tried to join in on a couple of conversations but they just ignore me. It was exceptionally awkward. <br><br>After a while, my brother pulled me aside and said I need to be more social. I was ruining the whole vibe and they noticed I wasn’t trying to talk to anyone. I told him I tried a couple of times but they just ignore me so I gave up. He said that maybe if I wasn’t so weird, they’d talk to me. I told him what he did was completely rude and I wasn’t being weird. He said I was being childish and I was ruining the whole vibe and to just try. <br><br>I came back out and tried my best to engage. I started conversation after conversation and they would all just stare at me until I got fed up and moved on. At one point I tried to talk to my brother’s wife and she was on her phone the entire time. My sister in law has always been what I call “condescending”. She’s a lot like my brother and always tries to sound like she’s helping me but really she’s trying to embarrass me. After I finished trying to talk to her, she said, “You know I was listening, I just had to text my friend really quick”. I told her that was rude but she just laughed. <br><br>After a couple of hours of this, I’d had enough. I wasn’t Ruining Thanksgiving. They were ruining it. I had done nothing wrong. I went to my car and left. I called my dad when I got to my car and told him what happened. He said he was disappointed I left but my brother called him shortly after and told him that I had tried to ruin Thanksgiving by being socially awkward and not trying to be social. This has now turned into I deliberately ruined thanksgiving. Not only that, but bringing my dog was a huge issue even though my dad said it was fine. <br><br>I don’t know what to do. I don’t want to go to Christmas at my dad’s house and have this happen all over again. I just can’t win with these people.