Speedballing while watching the breakup of a previously happy marriage

Speedballing, for those who don't know, is a dangerous mix of heroin and coke (or sometimes crack or meth). It's very very dangerous and I'd never recommend it but I also like to tell the truth about my past so: <br><br>This is a story I've wanted to tell for a while but I wasn't ready. <br><br>Also, I'm not sure what to call this post, so if someone has an idea I'd be happy to hear it. <br><br>When I've been in relationships in the past I always end up being the person to help my S/O (significant other) through some of the most difficult times of their lives. <br><br>Because of this, I've had my fair share of very very sad and touching moments with women. <br><br>So one night years ago when I was living with my then girlfriend I just happened to be speedballing in the bed while watching reruns of an old T.V show, I forget the name. <br><br>It was one of those classic, family sitcoms in which the mom and dad were happily married for many years. <br><br>In the episode I was watching, their marriage was beginning to show signs of trouble. <br><br>The husband would always have these little moments here and there where he'd be a little snarky with his wife but she'd always just laugh it off and shrug it off, but you could tell it was bothering her. <br><br>At the end of the episode, the husband (I forget the character names as well) was saying something snarky again but the wife wasn't laughing. <br><br>It was just a small, seemingly insignificant moment, but you could see that things were changing for them. <br><br>There was a moment of realization even for the husband that this was a turning point in their marriage. <br><br>Because of the drugs I was on, I was extremely high and sensitive so I got really choked up as I watched them and thought about how difficult it must be for someone to watch their marriage fall apart. <br><br>I then looked at my girlfriend and felt sad knowing that one day, she would be in that married couple's situation and watch her marriage fall apart. <br><br>I almost cried at this point.<br><br>Now obviously I don't know if that couple ever got a divorce but the point is they did have marital issues and the wife was sad about it. <br><br>At the time however, it was just so beautiful to me for some reason. <br><br>I think it's one of the most beautiful moments I've had in my life, watching a married couple's relationship begin to fall apart while laying in a bed high as fuck next to the girl I loved.