I used to be so devoted to learning Italian. I even have a degree in it, but can I speak? NO

I was in the middle of a call with an appliance repair company, because I took my coffee machine in for a repair and they are calling me to tell me I need a new one and it's not under warranty. <br><br>I was on speaker phone and my husband, who is Italian, was next to me. The repair person ended up speaking some Italian to my husband. <br><br>I am so mad at myself for not being able to speak it. I have a goddamn degree in it. <br><br>I would love to tell you it's just Italian and I can speak other languages just fine, but that's not the case. I don't have a great grasp of any language. I have two degrees in foreign language, and in 7 years I only got to speak once at work. I had barely any other interaction.<br><br>I'm worried about my next job, because when you work in this field it's always expected that you will speak the languages of the countries assigned to you. <br><br>I have bought several courses, and I have always ended up quitting. I am need to practice speaking a lot more and actually talk. But I am just so afraid to look stupid and I hate that.