My plan to become a psychologist is being ruined by my depression

I have just finished my first year of my psychology degree. I was doing really well and was enjoying it, but in a way it was making me feel worse. I’ve struggled with depression for several years now, and studying about all the different psychological disorders I feel the same way. I think everyone has a mental health disorder. I feel that way too. I feel like im a bad and unhelpful person. I’ve been having suicidal thoughts since I was about 10 years old, and I feel like there is no way to fix my broken mind. No therapist seems to help, and I feel like I’ve tried everything. My depression has left me feeling numb and empty. I hate studying so much more, no course ever has any advice that can help me. I feel like I’ll never be able to be anything other than how I am now. <br><br>I’m thinking of changing to a different field. I dont want to be a physiologist anymore. I feel like it’s pointless because nothing can ever help me. I’ll always be a depressed person. I don’t want to use my education to help others feel how I am. Maybe I will after years of trying, but im not so sure. I feel so lost. Any advice would be much appreciated. I feel like my depression has ruined my dreams, or maybe it’s just changed to different dreams.