The judge that blocked the abortion pill decision is the first ray of hope I've had since Friday.

I'm heartbroken. I can't concentrate. I want to be alone. I'm extremely angry at the right-wing fascists in my country. I'm heartbroken for all the women after me, and those who are pregnant already and are unable to get an abortion. I never wanted kids, I've seen how much difficulty my mother was in raising me alone after my father left us. I'm not sorry that I'm not playing that role. I'm not sorry that I'm choosing to be a career woman, and to never have kids. I know I made my parents happy, but I'm not going to sacrifice myself like my mother did to be a single mother. I'm trying to throw myself into work but it's hard to. I hate how my government treats women, we can't even get birth control without an appointment. I'm trying to stay rational, last night I was angry enough to be calling for violence and war against the right wingers. This is a dark day for America, and I feel hopeless, but we will never give up. <br><br>Edit: I'm dense and accidentally ranted in the wrong sub, we're protesting my university on Friday.