I would rather be lonely than hurt

I would rather be lonely than hurt. I would rather be lonely than be the woman who has "given up" and who "lets him do that" and who "lets him treat her like that." I would rather be lonely than to give someone the satisfaction of hurting me. I would rather be lonely than to give someone the satisfaction of cheating on me, of lying to me, of manipulating me, of gaslighting me, of scaring me to death, of isolating me, of making me feel like I'm not enough. I would rather be lonely than to give him the satisfaction of hurting me. <br><br>I could have someone. I could have anyone who would "love" me, but I don't want that. I don't want to be hurt. I would rather be lonely than to be hurt. I don't want to be hurt again. I don't want to be hurt again like that. It was so bad.<br><br>It was so, so bad. You have no idea. I wish you knew. I wish you knew how bad it was. I wish you knew how bad he hurt me. I wish you knew why I can't be hurt again.<br><br>I would rather die than be hurt like that again.