My girlfriend talks in her sleep. She’s been saying the most horrible things recently…

I’m infatuated with her. Utterly infatuated. And it wasn’t at a healthy level. Far from it. I would think about her every moment she was away. I would sometimes sit on my couch and just stare at my phone waiting for her to text. I’d tell myself “Don’t contact her. *Don't*. It will come off as too strong.” But then I’d still find myself clicking her name on my contact list before my inner voice would continue, “You don’t want her to know how desperately smitten you are with her. It’s unattractive. It will scare her off. No, you must wait for her to call you this time.” But I couldn’t seem to make it through the day without hearing her voice. So I’d call her. She’d be delighted that I was thinking of her. She’d ask what I was up to and I’d lie and say I was at some friend’s house and we were just hanging out and I thought of her. But it was all lies. I was alone in my living room. By myself. Sitting on my couch, staring at the TV. Stoned. Eating Cheetos. And wondering what it would be like if she was with me. Right there. At that moment. But she recently started saying things about Jerome. It didn’t bother me at first. I’d been acting like a clingy boyfriend the last few weeks and she’d been reprimanding me about it. Telling me she’d see me tonight. Telling me she was busy right now. Telling me she missed me. Telling me she loved me. Telling me she was going to the store and she’d call me when she got home. I’d call her when I was sure she was asleep. I’d call her at 3 am and she’d answer. I’d hear the TV or some shuffling in the background but I always knew she was lying to me. I’d ask her what she was doing up and she’d say, “I missed you. I couldn’t sleep. I was thinking about us.” Sometimes it was, “I missed you. I couldn’t sleep. I was thinking about having sex with you.” Which always sent shivers down my spine. I’d always get her to talk about sex. I’d ask her what position would she want me to fuck her in when I got there and she’d say she wanted me to fuck her from behind. Then she’d laugh. I’d ask her why she laughed and she’d say she was just excited to be with me. After a few more minutes of sex talk, I’d say I had to go to the bathroom and could she wait on the line? She’d say yes and I’d put her on speaker and close my eyes and listen to her moan as I masturbated. Sometimes it would be a few rounds before I was empty. But when I was, I’d bring her to climax after climaxes, over and over until she begged me to stop and that she was sore. Then I’d tell her to go to sleep. That I’d see her in the morning and we’d make love then. She’d laugh and say we’d never wait that long. That she’d come over as soon as she got off the phone with me. I’d tell her no. That it was late and she was in no shape to drive. That it was dangerous for a pretty girl to be driving alone at these hours. She’d laugh and say I was so sweet. I’d tell her I just wanted her to be safe. That she was the love of my life. I’d tell her I couldn’t sleep without her so could I call her back in two hours and see if she’s still awake? Or better yet, can I call her back in an hour and see if she’s still awake? “Or can I call back in 45 minutes and–” “No” she’d say. “I’ll call you when I wake up.” And then she’d hang up. This went on for almost nine months. But then she started saying things about Jerome during those phone calls. At first it was just his name. Just, “Jerome.” Then it was, “I love you Jerome.” Then it was, “Yes Jerome, that feels so good. That feels so good.” Then it was, “Yes Jerome. Right there. Yes, right there. Please don’t stop. Oh Jerome, I’m about to come. I’m about to come. Please don’t stop. Oh baby, I’m–” Then I’d hang up. Or should I say, I’d scream “YOU THINK ABOUT HIM WHEN WE’RE MAKING LOVE?! YOU THINK ABOUT HIM WHEN YOU’RE WITH ME?! BUT I’M BETTER THAN HIM! I LOVE YOU MORE THAN ANY MAN COULD EVER LOVE YOU! WHY DO YOU THINK ABOUT HIM?! WHY DO YOU THINK ABOUT HIM WHEN WE’RE MAKING LOVE YOU FUCKING BITCH!?” Sometimes it was so bad the neighbors would hear me screaming at her and they’d bang on the walls to shut up. Other times they’d call the cops on me because they thought a woman was in my apartment being beaten and raped. But I didn’t care. None of that mattered. All that mattered was her. But she called me one night. After we’d had one of those episodes where she’d scream Jerome’s name and I’d blow up at her. She called me at 10 pm. I was high. I was drinking. I was just freshly masturbating to her voicerecording from our last phone call. She said, “Hey baby. What are you doing?” I said, “Just high. Drinking a little. You know how it is.” She said, “No. Not really.” We talked for about 20 minutes. I asked her if she was mad at me for freaking out in the middle of our last phone call and she said, “Yes, I’m mad. But I forgive you.” Then she said, “You know, I had a weird dream tonight. I had a dream that you called me and I said all these horrible things to you.” I was taken aback. I said, “What did you say?” She said, “I can’t even remember. I think it was something about me calling you a little bitch or something. I don’t know. It was weird.” I said, “Well, I’m gonna go to sleep. See you tomorrow.” She said, “Yes, see you tomorrow.” And we both hung up. I thought nothing of it. We talked the next day. We talked the next night. We talked the following morning. We made love. We had sex. We went on dates. We went on more dates. And she never mentioned Jerome. It’s been three weeks now. And she hasn’t mentioned Jerome since that night. I think I might have overacted those nights. I think I might have gone too far. But I think she now knows how deeply in love with her I am. I love her so much. Right now as I’m writing this, I’m thinking about her. I wonder if she’s thinking about me too. I wonder what she’s doing. I wonder if she’s with Jerome. I just hope she’s okay. Edit: Make your own assumptions about how much of this is real and how much isn’t. That’s what I do whenever I read anything.

My girlfriend talks in her sleep. She’s been saying the most horrible things recently…

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