I love my husband but

I’m 39 years old and I’m sad. Not sad after a day at work or a few days with no sleep. But sad. Year in year out. Every day.<br>I have had thoughts of ending it all since I was 6 years old. I really wish I knew why. I have no reason to be sad. I have a great husband, 2 beautiful kids, a house, a job and friends. We live a great life, but I’m just not happy. I’ve been to doctors, and no depression or anxiety. I’m just sad. I’m tired of it. I’m tired of feeling like this. I want to be happy.