No one will be more disappointed in my death than my mother.

I have a feeling I wont be around very long after what I emailed her. I'm sorry to the mods for all the shit I posted this morning. I got over my head a little, and now I'm in a spot where I can't apologize.<br><br>This was the email I sent her<br><br>My family left when things started to get out of hand, and I wouldn't let them come back. I cant explain why. I've just never had much of an ability to talk to people about trauma without being irate. In a small way I think that's what's happening right now. I've had to bite my tongue for too long. So I'm going to.<br><br>I'm talking with someone from the police right now about the abuse I suffered through. I've told them everything. They're going to come to get you, to arrest you, to question you. You will be charged. You will be convicted and you will go to prison. And when you get out, I will make sure you never get anything from the family you betrayed.<br><br>You have been found out. You are going to rot in prison.<br><br>I also told them about the abuse you suffered, and I made it very clear that it does not excuse what you did. You can't blame your abuse for what you did to me. Every person has their own free will, and no one hurt you enough to justify the fact that you left me in the hands of my abusers.<br><br>You will rot.<br><br>I will never understand why you did what you did. But what I do know is that you will not be seen again by me or anyone else. You have no right to life, and you have no right to live free.<br><br>You will be arrested soon. Turn yourself in.<br><br>Also<br><br>I told them about all the shit I've done. All the shit I've sold. All the shit I've done. I've never hurt anyone. I never would hurt anyone. But you still have to go down. I dont know how I'm going to get out this, but so be it. I am no where near as bad as you.<br><br>I love you, but you have no right to live. You will be arrested. You will be charged. You will be convicted. You will be sentenced. I've told them where to find the evidence. It's over.<br><br>I'll let you know when it happens.