I'm getting it out of my system... this will be my first and last post ever.

Since I was 6 my mother told me I'm ugly and the fact I'm a boy by mistake. I'm a girl. I grew up with fear of becoming an adult and finding out how ugly I am and that I will never find love with anyone. I'm 13 now and I never saw a mirror in my entire life. I'm afraid to do it. I'm afraid to see what I really am. I'm afraid of dying alone. I'm afraid that the mirror will destroy my last hopes. I won't be able to sleep tonight. <br><br>Edit: sorry for grammar mistakes English is not my first language. Yes, I am a girl. I don't even know what the mirror in my room looks like because I'm afraid to look at it.