Highest GPA in college of my friend group, smartest person in my friend group, and I’m about to flush it all down the toilet so I can be an alcoholic.

Ok maybe not alcoholic, but I’m going to start drinking. I’ve been sober since mid 2017 and I’ve had maybe three drinks since then. I think I’m going to start drinking casually. I was always the most successful smartest person in my friend group, I did the best. Now I’m just done. I’m going to start drinking pretty regularly and seeing what it’s like. It’s been years and I miss it. I’m starting to feel resentful that I have to be the best one. Now I’m just done.