Today, I got off work early. I thought I would spend the time fishing, until I saw her. Now, I want to die.

I'm a garbage man in a small town. There's a woman who puts out her trash, it's always put nicely in bags. I like that because it's easier to pick up. I see her every time too. She always wears a pretty flower print dress to scrub the walk and stairs. This is Northern MN, so our weather is pretty crappy during the spring, especially on the days when it's 45 degrees and raining, kinda like today. I've been watching her for a while now, I love the way she smiles at me when I see her. She tries to be a little nice to me, I think she feels bad that I have to do this job.<br><br>I usually get home from work at 4:30, I got home at 1:45 today. My wife was there with our 2-year-old daughter. She was giving my daughter a bath, she told me to get the towels from our bedroom. I walked in the room, I hear my wife moaning, kinda unusual because well it was 1 in the fucking afternoon, but I didn't think much of it. As I walked into the room, I saw her.<br><br>Our babysitter getting pounded by my wife, who was wearing the flower print dress, was looking at me with a very confused and scared expression. Everything started to fell apart. All the times we were late picking up our daughter, all the times my wife wanted to go out for drinks, everything. I grabbed my daughters carseat and rushed out the door, I heard my wife saying "What the fuck, stop!" I drove to the park on the lake and just cried. Why am I not good enough, am I just a paycheck to her? I feel like I just lost everything.