I'm over 50 and the loneliness is too much

I've never done this kind of conversation before, but I think I need to let it out. I'm a 58 year old man and I'm severely lonely. I've been socially isolated for years, even before the quarantine. I feel like I've just been alone for so much of my life that I don't even know what it's like to not be this way anymore. <br><br>I've tried joining clubs and attending events and all that but it's just not working, and the loneliness is too much to bear anymore. I don't know where else to turn. I don't know if things can ever be better. I'm overwhelmed by sadness and it's all I can think about; that I will die lonely and just be another person in a grave. <br><br>I don't even know what I'm asking for here, just venting I guess.