being a teacher is becoming a burden

i'm a high school teacher with 11 years of experience. <br><br>all i want to do is something worth while for these kids. i want to be respected and like being their teacher, mentor, or even friend. i want to make a difference. <br><br>i'm tired of the weight of giving them something better than what they get at home. <br><br>i'm tired of being asked to take care of their mental health.<br><br>i'm tired of hearing them talk about wanting to end it all. <br><br>i'm tired of hearing them having been sexually assaulted. <br><br>i'm tired of hearing them talk about how much they hate school and how much they hate coming here. <br><br>i'm tired of hearing how i'm not doing my job right. <br><br>i've gotten calls from parents telling me i need to do better and do more for their child. <br><br>i'm tired of being told that it's all my fault that their child is failing. <br><br>i'm tired of being told that if i could only teach better, their child would be doing better. <br><br>i'm tired of seeing where i end and their parents begin. <br><br>i'm tired of seeing other departments do their job poorly and watch the kids suffer because of it. <br><br>i'm tired of seeing the kids suffer because they're not at where they should be academically. <br><br>i'm exhausted and want to pull my hair out. <br><br>i love my students and want to help them. but i'm not trained to be a therapist. i'm not trained to deal with all this.<br><br>i want all these problems to be all in one place so they can be solved. just throw them all in a bucket and let someone else deal with it. <br><br>i'm tired of feeling worried and concerned about my kids. i go home every day worried. <br><br>i'm tired of feeling like i don't make a difference no matter how much i try. <br><br>i have a kid that's dying. i'm tired of trying to get him to come to school. <br><br>i'm tired of seeing my students go through so much and feeling like there's nothing i can do to help.