Not gonna lie, I hate women.

Not gonna lie, I hate women. I don't want to be a misogynist, I don't want to hate anyone. But I just can't help it, and I want to die. I want to die. I'm transgender, I was born male and transitioned to female. My therapist even told me when I first started my gender exploreation journey that I have more feminine feelings than masculine feelings. I found out I was trans for real after I came out to my parents as gay and they tried forcing me to be male and doing the "boy things". I was already 16 and knew I was trans by then. They completely destroyed my mental health as I got gender dysphoria to the point I wanted to kill myself. I my mom still gives me gender dysphoria as she calls me "he" and "him" and acts like me being trans is a phase and that I'm making myself believe I'm trans. I hate her for that. I was able to find myself a good community of people to educate my parents, and I got to be completely recognized as female and start HRT. I was so happy then, and I thought she would change her behavior. But I still get called "he" and "him" and I still act like the "man" I was forced to be. I've had my therapist work with me for two years to try and help me feel more feminine so I can explore my individualism. It's been two years and I still don't feel feminine, I don't feel like a woman, nothing. I just wanna die and I hate myself because I'm still "masculine" and I want to be feminine. And I hate women for getting to be feminine and for taking that from me.<br><br>P.S. I am no longer 16, I am now 18.