Every person I was ever in love with was incestuous in one way or another

I'm not even kidding. Being in love with my family for so many years, and now that I'm married to my brother for 6 years now, I look back on my past and I see that my heart always belonged to family. <br><br><br>When I was 7 years old, I told my parents that I had a crush on my older cousin. I was convinced that we were going to grow up together, have babies, and live happily ever after. My parents laughed and told me that it was cute. When I turned 13, and I started to question what "incest" really was, I realized that I wasn't so "cute" after all. I was too ashamed to tell anyone about my crush, so I just repressed the feelings and moved on. <br><br><br>I had a crush on my friend in high school, and when I turned 18 I said "fuck it" and dated him from 18 until I was 22. When it came to marriage, I realized how wrong it felt to imagine having babies with someone I didn't share my own dna with. I dumped him and repressed my family feelings even more. <br><br><br>In college I got drunk and went home with another friend, who turned out to be a total psycho. It did not end well. I was so traumatized that I dropped out of college and moved away from all of my friends to be with my family in another state. <br><br><br>That's when I met him. My husband. He is my younger brother. We grew up together. I used to watch him when he was a toddler, we were inseparable. I left for 4 years when I went to college, and when I came back I was so blown away with how cute and hot he had become. <br><br><br>I was so scared to tell him. I was scared of the law, I was scared of my family, and I was scared of my own feelings. He persisted, and in the end we ended up telling our parents. It did not go well, but we moved in with each other and got married in a small court ceremony with no family or friends. <br><br><br>Now we have 3 kids together and we are living our best lives. Everytime I look into my children's eyes I know that I never should have tried to live a regular life. I am so happy that I found the strength to live my truth, and to be with the person I have always been in love with.