I've been sober for 3 years and I'm goin to get high

Hi. I get drug tested every week and I'm going to ask my sponsor if he can let me off this week and get high. He can get me a pill test.<br><br>I'm just so damn sick of being sober and feeling like I'm missing out. I've been sober for 3 years and this is the first time I've ever considered getting high. And now I've been thinking about it for weeks. I'm normal go out and get drunk but I don't really get the feeling I'm looking for.<br><br>I can get anything I want. I want to try something new, maybe something that comes in a sack... I don't really know what drugs I want to try I just want to feel the rush of my first high again, but this time I don't want to overdo it.<br><br>I'll let you know what I end up trying. My sponsor is cool with it as long as I make sure I pass my drug test on Monday.<br><br>UPDATE. I haven't gotten high yet. I was going to get some heroin but I decided to keep looking. I'll post again when I get high.<br><br>EDIT. I ended up getting high. I went to my dealer and asked what I should get. We go for a drive and end up doing a gram of heroin. I go home and I never get high since I have about 4 grams total. <br><br>When I get home I'm very depressed, I end up doing two grams... then I fall asleep. I wake up the next morning and I'm not high any more. I'm just sick. <br><br>I'm happy to be sober again. I feel like I made a mistake and learned a lesson. When I left my dealers house I already regretted getting high. I want to thank you all for your support.