I really want to change my life, but I have so many responsibilities that I can't.

I'm 28, I've been working in the same field since I was 15, and frankly, I generally dislike my life (and work but I need it). However, I'm preoccupied by so many responsibilities in my life that it is hard for me to even imagine changing my life.<br><br>I can't tell you my specific details, but I'm responsible for two families, two houses, a company, and I'm struggling with keeping it all together for the past 1-2 years, really hard.<br><br>I desperately want to get out of this "model" of a life and live another, probably more peaceful life, but I simply can't imagine how to do it: it's hard to even paint it in my mind, let alone actually change it. Frankly, I'm so exhausted that I just want to let go of everything.<br><br>Do you have any advice? How can I even imagine, let alone change my life?<br><br>EDIT: First, I want to tell you that I'm grateful for every comment, it takes time to write something from a complete stranger. Thank you.<br><br>Second, for me, responsibility means "the state of having control or authority over something".<br><br>Third, I felt inspired by a 25-year-old software engineer that I met the other day and told him that I too used to work in tech, but I left the field because it was too "crowded". He asked me if I was happy with the change, but I didn't have an answer for him, I just felt a bit sad, probably because the life he was living was so much better than mine (I'm absolutely sure of it).<br><br>Fourth, I have generally struggled with "wanting to control things" in the past, and it has caused me a lot of stress and unhappiness. Maybe this is why I'm struggling now - when I imagine a better life, I just think of "letting go of everything".<br><br>As for "how I think I can change my life", I think the simplest way to put it is "to create a life where I don't have to work from 8 to 5". I don't want to work 8-hour days, I don't want to work for somebody else's benefit while I'm struggling, I just want to live another, probably more peaceful life.<br><br>Lastly, I understand that I might have "created" these responsibilities myself, probably because of past trauma and a fear of losing my family and my business. But I just don't understand how I can change this, and I feel "stuck" in this life.<br><br>EDIT2: I'm going to talk with a therapist, and I'm going to write in my journal for the next few days. I'll see how I feel after that.<br><br>EDIT3 (THE END): I think I made it. I sat alone in the middle of nowhere and wrote in my journal for hours (days?). I realized that I've been trying to control everything for years. I'm going to let go.<br><br>Thank you.