My friend (F26) asked if she could touch my dick and it’s my first time so I’m confused on what to do

Long story short I (M25) have been best friends with Sarah (F26) since we were kids. Never had a relationship w her but always had a HUGE crush on her since we were young but I never did anything about it. I’m still a virgin and never had a relationship with anyone, and Sarah has had multiple relationships.<br><br>Last night we were at a party and Sarah had a few drinks, then she said let’s go for a walk. We went for a walk and she randomly asked me “why are we still friends?”. I was like I don’t know, I like having you as a friend. She said “no I’m serious, we’ve been friends for almost 20 years now, it’s so weird how we still talk everyday and hang out all the time and we’ve never even kissed, it’s weird that we never even tried to have a relationship”. I was like it’s not weird to me, I don’t see the big deal. I don’t know if she was flirting or not (she’s always been super friendly) but she was being definitely a lot more touchier than usual and she was looking into my eyes when she was talking. She then asked me why I never tried to kiss her or make a move on her. I was like, I don’t know, I just never wanted to ruin our friendship. Then she said “I don’t get it, you must have been attracted to me at some point right? You must have wanted to try something right?”. I was like yes I’m attracted to you but I don’t wanna try anything bc I don’t wanna ruin our friendship. She said “even when we were younger?”. I was like yes, I was extremely attracted to you in HS. She was like “why didn’t you ever try anything”. I said bc I didn’t wanna ruin our friendship and I was shy. She said “well even if we did try something and it didn’t work out, we could always still be friends”. I was like I dunno, I didn’t wanna take the chance.<br><br>Then she said “well I’m gonna ask you something and if you say no then I’ll leave it alone so we can still be friends, but if you say yes then it will be go”. I was like ok. She said “can I feel your dick”. I was like ok lol (I didn’t think she was serious). She was like “why aren’t you taking out your dick”. I was like oh should I. She was like yes lol. She lifted up her dress and showed me her panties and I was like damn, I didn’t expect her to literally show me. Then I started to take out my dick but then I started to stop and she was like “don’t stop” and then she lifted up her dress some more and her pussy was right in front of me. I didn’t expect to see her pussy lol. Then she started pulling down her panties and then I got super nervous and stopped and said I changed my mind. Then she said “nah come on, I wanna feel it”. I was like no I changed my mind it’s good. Then she said “let me touch it and if you don’t like it I’ll stop”. I thought about it but my dick was getting hard thinking about it so I was like sure whatever, she can touch it I guess lol.<br><br>She grabbed my dick and she was like “oh my, it’s big”. Then she started playing with it and I was getting super turned on. I didn’t expect it to feel so good. Then she started sucking it. I never had a BJ before so it felt amazing. I was in shock bc I didn’t expect her to start sucking it right away. She was sucking it super hard and I was about to cum and I didn’t wanna cum in her mouth so I told her to stop but she said “nah come in my mouth I wanna try it”. I wasn’t gonna argue bc it felt too good so I let her keep sucking it and then I came. I was embarrassed bc I came kinda fast but she said “I like how you taste”. She looked happy.<br><br>Then we walked back to the party and she was all smiles, she looked super happy. I was in shock bc I didn’t expect her to do all that. I didn’t expect her to suck my dick. At first I thought she was just gonna feel it & I didn’t think she was gonna suck it. I feel super confused now bc we’re still friends but it feels super weird now. I don’t know if I should bring it up or not. I feel like we should talk about it but I don’t know what to say. I feel super confused. Should I ask her out? I don’t wanna ruin the friendship if she rejects me tho. I feel like I should talk to her about it but I don’t know what to say. Should I just forget about it and pretend like it never happened? I feel super confused now.<br><br>Edit: she’s been texting me all day. She seems super excited and happy lol. I feel like I should talk to her about it but I don’t wanna ruin the friendship if she rejects me.