This subs lack of support for women is really disheartening

I've never really posted here, I just lurk. I'm a victim of rape. It happened 3 years ago and my rapist is currently serving a 2 year jail sentence.<br><br>I initially came here because I felt like I had no where else to go, no one else to talk to about how I feel. Most of my (male) friends don't really get it, they can't relate, and I don't really have any close female friends.<br><br>I asked for advice about how I should feel, if I should feel bad that I wasn't angry enough about the whole thing. I want nothing but misery and death for my rapist and his friends, but when it comes to the act of rape itself, I am very nonchalant. I know that "it's not my fault" and I don't think it is, but I also don't really feel any sadness or anything. I just feel kind of empty? I really don't know. Anyways, I asked if others ever feel this way, and the only responses I got were "you should feel angry" "you're not a real victim". <br><br>That hurts me so much, I feel like I can't turn to anyone without being judged. I feel like my feelings are wrong for some reason.