I had a friend on the internet and he left because I was feeling a little too close to him. He said he was in a relationship and they need privacy.

I would never have met him in real life since we are too far from each other. He was an online friend. I never knew his address. He said he was done with the relationship but I guess they got back together?<br><br>Against my will I got close to him because talking to him was the only thing that could make me feel better in the last year. I was going through some really tough shit and he was the only person I had to talk to. I never told him how I felt about him. he was good guy and I personally would never have felt comfortable enough to tell him that I liked him. I would have felt awkward. I never told him about my personal life but he knew that I felt safer with him online than I do in real life.<br><br>But I can't help feeling bad about this. I should feel happy for him and all that but I can't. I'm a bad person and I want him to go through pain.