I am having a huge crisis right now. Am I stupid and wasting my time pursuing nursing?

Long story short, I got accepted to an accelerated BSN program. I was so excited at first, and I thought I found a career I wanted to do in life. I read a couple of horrible stories about becoming a nurse, which has left a bad taste in my mouth, and now I am more confused than ever. I have always wanted to go to med school, but I didn’t get the best grades and I doubted I could get in. I figured the next best thing was to be a nurse. I could still get a good income, have a stable career and help pts. I felt a sense of relief knowing that I can get a degree in 12 months and have a chance of getting a decent job out of school. My ultimate dream job is to be an anesthesiologist, but I stopped trying to chase that dream when I graduated from college. I also want to mention that I have literally never been to the hospital (other than a couple of minor things like a sprain) and I don’t know how I’m going to be able to deal with the stress and seeing patients die. It’s especially hard because I am a very empathetic person. I am really lost and I don’t know if I’m making a huge mistake. I am not sure if I can handle seeing rampant drug abuse and all the shit nurses have to deal with.