I am so tired of being alone. Every second of my life has been spent alone.

I am so tired of being alone. I'm tired of waking up alone, tired of going to bed alone, tired of going to the grocery store alone. I am so tired of being alone. I am so tired of being treated like I am nothing more than a corpse that is somehow managed to be animated.<br><br>I am so tired of being ignored. I am so tired of being treated like I am not a person. I am so tired of being treated like I am nothing more than a piece of furniture that is sometimes here and sometimes not here but nobody really cares one way or the other.<br><br>I am so tired of having to perform and entertain to get anyone to give me any attention at all. I am so tired of having to beg to be treated like a person. I am tired of being treated like an animal that has to be trained to be of any value. I am so tired of being told I am worthless.<br><br>I am so fucking tired of being alone. I am so tired of never having a single person in my entire life who has ever been there for me and only for me, who has ever put me first, who has ever loved me first. I am so tired of never having anyone who likes me for me, who doesn't want something from me, who doesn't want to use me. I am so tired of being nothing more than a resource and a commodity and a tool and a toy and a waste of space.<br><br>I am so tired of words. I am tired of promises that are never kept and I am tired of lies. I am tired of being told I am loved and then being treated like I am nothing. I am tired of being told I am the most important person and then being ignored for everyone and everything else.<br><br>I am so tired of being alone and I am tired of being hurt and I am tired of being angry and I am tired of being treated like nothing and I am tired of being treated like I am not a person. I am tired of everything.<br><br>I don't want to be alone anymore.