Do I (27F) allow family that kicked me out at 18 back into my life, husband (28M) thinks I should but I don’t know how.

I’m 27 now and I have been with my husband (28) for 6 years and married for 2 years. I have a 16 month old son.<br><br>I was born into a large Mormon family with 8 children. Growing up I always felt like I was in the way. My parents were always struggling with money. I wore hand-me downs for my entire childhood and had to share a room with several of my siblings.<br><br>When I was 18 I got into a fight with my parents and I left the house. They didn’t try to stop me and didn’t expect me to leave. But once I did they just said oh well and that was it. I never heard from them again. No Birthday or Christmas cards, I was just gone. I think it’s worth mentioning that I was a pretty troublesome teen and I’ve since grown out of it. But at the time I was reckless and I did do things I regret.<br><br>I met my husband when I was 19 and we bonded over both being “black sheep” in a way. He came from a very wealthy and well connected family, but was estranged from them too. He comes from a lot so his perspective on being in my shoes is very different. <br><br>My husband has been pro reunion with my family for a long time. He thinks it’s important for our son to know his family and to have a relationship with them. He also has said he thinks it would be good for me as well, to have my family in my life.<br><br>I personally feel very uneasy about the idea of seeing them again, or my son having a relationship with them. I have four siblings that are younger then me and four that are older. My parents have been divorced for about 4 years now and the reasons why are sordid to say the least. I didn’t grow up in a happy home, and I don’t think inviting them into my life would be good for me or my son.<br><br>A few weeks ago I got a friend request on Facebook from my younger sister. She seemed genuinely happy to reconnect and I was surprised at how much it effected me emotionally. I have been thinking about my family a lot and how I feel about it.<br><br>I asked my husband if he thinks my sister would be a good gateway into seeing the rest of my family. She’s 25 now and I was always protective of her, because of our upbringing. He thinks it’s a good idea, but I don’t know.<br><br>Has anyone else gone through this? How did it go for you? I feel like I would definitely be opening a whole can of worms and I’m just not sure.