It's a good time to be alive

Been nofap for well over a year, gaining muscle and weight. Turning 19 in a couple of days and just moved into a new place with my best friends. Got a new gaming rig and a really comfy PC chair. Really looking forward to life and the adventures it brings.<br><br>I don't give a fuck about anything. I do whatever I want whenever I want. Movie night with the bois? Hell yeah. Night out at the clubs? Hell yeah. Week long camping trip in the mountains? I can't fucking wait. Not having to give a shit about some bitch is the greatest feeling in the world. Go for the things you want. Live your life the way YOU want to live it. Fuck what anyone else has to say about it.<br><br>What are some of your favorite things? What's your favorite food? What makes you happy? <br><br>I personally love steak and pasta, good pair of headphones, pair of boots to walk around the mountains in. I love being in the snow, and it's a good year for it. I want to go skydiving but I'm just waiting for the right day for it. I don't want to do it on a cloudy day. I'll never cry. I'll never go camping without a tent. I'll never miss an opportunity to go skinny dipping. I'll never own a dog. I'll never be dependent on a woman. I'll never cry. I'll never be overweight again. I'll never be skinny again. I'll never be unhappy.<br><br>What's your least favorite thing? What do you hate the most? What makes you sad? What do you miss? What do you do? How do you feel about it all?<br><br>I hate lazy people. I hate the rush of the city. I hate going to the park and seeing little boys fawning over a group of little girls. I've always been a bit of an outcast, never been the popular kid, but its never bothered me because I've never given a fuck about what other people think. <br><br>I personally may not be a recluse, but I do love spending time alone. I may not be the gym rat, but I love the atmosphere. I'm regular at my favorite bakery and the local book store. I do what I want, when I want, how I want. I love being alone, and I love being with people. Being alone gives me the time to reflect on my life and I do what I want with it, then I get to share it with the people I care about. <br><br>I used to be an unhappy kid, lived in a fucked up home. But hey, it turned me into the person I am today. I'm confident and I know that no matter what happens, I can handle it. I'm no hero, but I feel like one. I walk around with my head held high, shoulders rolled back. I sit tall in my chair and I have conversations with people I don't know. From the moment I wake up until the moment I go to sleep, I'm happy. I'm the happiest I've ever been. I've never felt this good in my life.<br><br>So here's to you, you turd of a woman that works at the local convenience store. You get to watch me go through 3-4 energy drinks a day, everyday of the week. I'll make sure to drink them all before I leave the store and I'll make sure to ask for a straw. But I'll never throw out the bottle in the trash you leave by the door, I'll always put it in my bag and take it home with me. I'll always smile your way and I'll always say hi. And you'll never call me on the phone because you don't want to talk about anything in particular, you'll only want to talk to me. And I'll never answer. So I hope you're happy. <br><br>You make me happy girl. I want to be your friend. I want to get to know you. I want to get to know your body. I want to hold you in my arms. I want to have you hold me in yours. I want you to go on a hike with me. I want you to dance with me. I want to show you the stars. I want to show you the ocean. I want to play board games with you. I want to play video games with you. I want to go fishing with you. I want to explore with you. I want to wake up with you. I want to fall asleep with you. I want to spend the night with you. I want you to spend the night with me. I want to cuddle you. I want you to cuddle me. But I don't want you. You make me happy girl. <br><br>I've been watching you for quite a while now. You're a very pretty woman. You make me very happy. I love the way you smile and the way you laugh. I don't want you, I just want to spend time with you. You make me want to be a better person. But I'm not a better person. I'm a parasite. I'm a faggot. And you're just a bitch. <br><br>But if you ever have a child, I want to watch it with you. I want to watch your belly grow. I want to be by your side when you give birth. I want to be a dad. Not your dad, but the dad. <br><br>I get cold very easily, but I'll brave the harsh winds of the mountains for you. I don't know why, but I feel like it would be worth it. I'll do whatever it takes to make you happy, but I'll never go on a date with you. I'll never tell you I love you. I'll never tell you how I feel. I'll never stop seeing other people. And I'll never fuck you. <br><br>But I want you to be happy. And I want you to make me happy. You're a very interesting woman and I love watching you. <br><br>I don't love you, I just love watching you.<br><br>I don't want you, but you make me very happy.<br>You're a woman. You're a bitch. And you're a parasite. But you're very pretty.