I've never in my life felt more like I was being conned

I'm in the military and right now I'm on deployment, I'm in the room with some other lads but I don't feel like I want to be here, its not like I'm missing anything it's not like I'm doing anything fucking important, I'm in the middle of nowhere doing some random bullshit in a country that doesn't even give a shit about me but I'm being ordered to be here but I'm being paid to be here, I feel like some kind of slave, it fucking sucks