Final realization

I don't mind explaining my situation, but it's too complicated. Let's just say that I've felt and realized that I am alone in this world. I don't expect or rely on anyone's help. I rely on nobody. I could die and my family wouldn't know a damn thing about it.<br><br>I'm not 18 yet. I'm just a teen. I'm just realizing this now. But this is too much. I feel not wanted, not needed, unappreciated, unnecessary. I'm so scared. What if my feelings are right? What if I'm truly alone and nobody could ever love me or help me? What if I'm truly nothing to people? I'm a burden, do I really think I could ever find someone who likes me?<br><br>I'm a loner here in my school. I don't have friends. I'm a ghost. Nobody wants to be my friend. I'm invisible to the teachers, I'm invisible to everyone. Maybe I'm not meant to be loved or appreciated. Maybe that's meant to be my life.<br><br>I'm just alone.<br><br>&#x200B;