I got locked out and I'm so alone.

Most of you that follow me know my situation. In a chambers nutshell: Insta fam of 4 with 2 kids. 16m and 8.5 month-old. Mom and 2 kids are positive and will be quarantining our house. Dad negative with antibodies and quarantining in a song house we have in the backyard. 2nd kid was about 9mo when first waves hit & we still had that fear and quarantine in place. 2nd quarantine is much worse. I get that he's 9mo now, but it's much lonelier for some reason. I don't know why.