I am 29 years old, and I have never found a best friend, a partner, or even a friend group, and I think it’s my fault

Well, maybe I should say I am 29 years old and I survived 29 years without a single best friend. A single partner. A single friend group. <br><br>I can’t say that I don’t know the reason why I don’t have friends, because I know, and it’s all too familiar for me to ignore.<br><br>I have never felt like I belong, I don’t feel like I fit into any category of people, I have a hard time meeting new people, and my lack of social skills and self esteem make it impossible for me to meet new people, and I feel like I scare people off because of my lack of social skills.<br><br>Whenever I click with someone, I feel like I hurt them with my awkwardness, and then, the relationship is over. <br><br>I have nobody to talk to. <br><br>I remember I used to look at people around me with envy, especially the popular ones, or the ones who seemed to get whatever they wanted without any effort. <br><br>Now I look at them with resignation. If I got this far in life alone, I guess I will live the rest of my life alone too.<br><br>What’s wrong with me?