does anyone else find the idea of a "high" hilarious?

my first experience with weed was so different than I expected. i thought it would be like a strong rush of euphoria and a feeling of excitement. but really it's more like when you try to remember something and you can't so you give up on it and then you remember it a couple of hours later (not necessarily in chronological order). it's like trying to remember something your dad used to say to you when you were a kid and you can't remember because you haven't heard it in 20 years but you still have a memory of it, it's like that. except it's not really a memory, it's just anything you think about and half the time it makes no sense. it's like all these random neurons in your brain are like "oh finally, we can talk." it's not like a trip that Hansel and Gretel went on in that one movie, it's more like when you're walking through a field and your feet hurt. <br><br>also, does anyone have any suggestions on how I can stop thinking about it so much? i used to smoke weed a lot when i was younger but i've recently developed this habit of thinking about it all the time and it's like an itch that i can't scratch. i don't want to end up like some of my friends who i know could easily quit if they wanted to but for some reason they don't. i don't know why but i get this feeling that weed is very bad for me. i know that your brain won't stop developing until you're like 25 or 30 or something, and i think i started smoking again about a year before my brain finished developing. i've been smoking on and off for a few years now and i can't tell if it's just my imagination or if i'm actually losing my memory. i know it's illegal but i'm not worried about that, i live in a blue state. it's very legal where i live.<br><br>i did try to stop drinking for a while but i ended up getting too drunk. maybe it's the same sort of thing.