I never knew how much I truly loathed children.

My son is almost 8. He’s been doing a lot of shitty behaviors that I thought I’d grow out of, or at least turn into something bearable as he grew older. Nope. It’s the exact opposite. <br><br>His main issue is he is a huge copy cat, but he copies all the shitty behaviors he’s seen, NEVER the good ones. I’ll give you a few examples I’ve dealt with in just the last week. <br><br>When we go out to eat, he can’t stand to just wait for his food. He has to get up and down a million times. He’ll sit, then jump up, then sit, then jump up....he does this at least 10 times in a row, every time we eat. He gets up, then immediately sits right back down, or he’ll get up then give me this smug look on his face like he’s trying to make sure I see him. He’s not getting up to do anything. He’ll just walk to the other side of the table then sit back down. <br><br>I get so many dirty looks and disgusted silently mouthed comments from others. It makes me feel so ashamed and embarrassed, but this kid is so hard to discipline. Even when he knows what he’s doing is wrong, he won’t stop. When he was smaller, he’d just throw a fit if I tried to discipline him. Now he’ll tell me “no” when I try to get him to stop doing something. Kids do not listen. <br><br>I got my food to go from a restaurant today. My son and I were in the car and I was eating my food. My son kept pulling on my arm trying to get my attention but I told him I’m busy eating. So he grabbed my arm and this Christina Aguilera voice screamed, “DO IT!” And I was so shocked that I jumped and my food went flying. My entire meal went all over the inside of the car. I was absolutely livid and I had just gotten done telling him to stop pulling on me. <br><br>How do you punish a kid for something like that?Take away his electronics? Big deal, he’ll just watch tv or do something else. It doesn’t matter what I take from him, he’s always unfazed. There is literally nothing he cares about enough to make him listen. <br><br>It makes it so hard when all I want to do is just spank him or smack him across his face. I don’t think it’s right to discipline your kid by hitting them, but at the same time, bunch of bullshit. He needs to learn but is there even anything you can do for a kid who is 8? I don’t know. I’m so confused and frustrated and I never knew how much having a kid would make me regret my life choices. <br><br>This isn’t the only incident. I left out a ton of other bullshit he’s done just over the past few days. But he’s done a lot of this his entire life. He’s made me cry in front of strangers multiple times in public. <br><br>I was always afraid of having kids because of the unknown, but now that I have one, I know 100% that I do not want any more children, ever.