I've been in Vilnius for 9 months already. There's a few things that I sincerely hate here

I've been looking for answers to my questions, so I've decided to put them all in one post.<br><br>**Did you calculate what your pension will be?**<br><br>I'm 3 years away from retirement, but I've never had any chance to retire since I had to work since I was 14. I worked 26 years, and I paid sufficient amount of taxes, but I still calculate that I will only have approximately 500€ / month. I expect I will have to live in poverty, to be honest. Will I have to live in my own house? Because retirement homes are shamefully expensive. This wasn't the point of this post, and I'm already regretting bringing it up.<br><br>**Would you allow me to borrow your axe so I can chop my head off?**<br><br>I was asking this question in a few places and people were genuinely concerned that I wanted to end my life. I was just looking for an axe to chop some branches of trees. What the hell did I say wrong? Why does everyone think I want to kill myself? I was just trying to ask a question, but a few people literally suggested I should get mental help and that they're not going to mentally kill themselves. What the hell? Why would you refuse to lend an axe? Do you even need it at all? Do you even have any place to store it? Why don't you just lend it to me? Am I truly this dangerous? I just want to chop some branches so I can light up my fireplace. You can have your axe back when I'm done. Why would you think I'm here wanting to borrow an axe just to kill myself? I've been in Vilnius for 9 months and I already regret it. I'm so fucking tired of having to handle Lithuanians in this autistic country. I tried giving them my spent cigarette, but they walked away, as if they were insulted. I just can't understand how bizarre Lithuanians are. They have their own rules and they can't obviously point them out. I just live by the rules of men, but I'm already tired of them. I already regret it. Why do I have to live here for?! Am I not allowed to go to any other country? Why did I have to choose Lithuania specifically? I'm already tired of this place. It's just full of liars that call me a liar. I've been wronged so much and I'm still being wronged. People are calling me a liar, even though they're the ones lying. I've never seen so many shameless people in my entire life. I'm already tired of Lithuanians. They don't know the meaning of shame and they don't know the meaning of respect. They don't know how to operate. They're just useless and a waste of time. There's no point in talking to Lithuanians. They're shameless idiots. I'm literally tired. I just want to live generally. I don't need any specific country. But I'm already tired of living in Lithuania. I don't even care what country I go to. I just want to get out of this hellhole.