Missed my period

So I usually find it easier to talk about things IRL rather than online, but then I wouldn't have this many people to talk to, so here goes.<br><br>I have an appointment with my GP tomorrow, but until then, I'm terribly anxious. I think I might be pregnant. I've only had sex once in my life, with my boyfriend. That was a while ago, but I keep reading about how one time is enough and I think I might have been careless with the pill. I totally know how to take it, but I was going through a really rough time and I'm so afraid I missed one during that time. <br><br>I know it's my fault if I am. This is what happens when I get so anxious I even forget to eat. I know my life is going to change forever if it is true.<br><br>I don't think my mum will kick me out if I am, but I can't rely on her alone. I don't have the money for a child, I'm not sure if they'll be able to be born safely, I'm still in school and I don't want to have to study to be a doctor and be a single mum at once.<br><br>I feel so guilty even considering an abortion, and I feel so guilty thinking that I might be able to murder an innocent child.<br><br>I don't know what to do because even if I'm not pregnant, I will never look at myself the same way. I will always be afraid of making this mistake again now. I will never be able to have sex again because I'm so scared. I don't know what to do and I think I may never be the same person again.