I really feel like the blackpill is the only place where I can really express myself.

Ever since I was a small child, I was in school, and I was an outcast. I was the fat kid, the developmentally delayed kid, I had a speech delay. <br><br>I used to get picked on, I can relate to the stories of other blackpilled people, of people who would get bullied to tears. I felt like a reject, like I did a mistake to society. I used to even get picked on by teachers. As a kid, I was very naive, I wanted to make friends with everyone. <br><br>As I got older, it became very obvious to anyone that I was going to be different and that I have autism, so the bullying stopped and instead everyone just felt sorry for me. I felt like I did something wrong, like I was a burden to everyone around me. I also had very low self esteem and self confidence. I always wanted friends, but no one wanted to be my friend because I was either too awkward or too nerdy for people to be around. I wanted to be friends with everyone. <br><br>When I was a teenager, and I found people online who were like me, it was like nothing ever felt better. I was suddenly being told that I wasn't a burden, that I didn't make any mistakes, that I didn't deserve what was happening to me. I was like, finally, I have people who understand me. <br><br>It just feels like no matter what I do, no matter what I succeed at, I'm always going to be looked down at and pitied and judged. I feel like the blackpill is the only place outside of the internet where I can be myself, and I don't feel like I have to hide who I am.